From babies to peanut butter to Jesus and a set of binoculars

I wish I was three and a half every now and then only because of the pure simplicity of the way the world is through their eyes. Grayson has been full of questions recently...some I wasn't expecting quite yet. Late last week, we were finishing breakfast when Gray asked, "How did I get into your belly?" My response, "well son it's a bit complicated, but the short end, God put you there, the long end, it involves some information on the birds and the bees." Gray's response: "Oh, is that smooth or crunchy peanut butter." Hmmmmm...I must have been pretty captivating.

Randy and Gray had a father son day on Saturday and ended up at an ice cream shop munching on a cone, when Randy saw that there was church on on that church, you guessed, a giant crucifixion. We have been reading about the crucifixion of Jesus, a tough subject for an adult to grasp, let alone a child. Randy started talking about what we have been reading in the bible and Gray had a picture of what this big word meant. "Jesus died, somebody died Jesus...why? Dada, that's not OK to die our friends."

Now cut to the shot of him and I a few days later in the midst of our nighttime routine, books and milk, topped off with brushing of his teeth and a bit of the bible. I think we may have been in the middle of an Olivia book when Gray brought up the ice cream and Jesus. He shared with me the entire experience that he shared with his dad.

"Mama, Jesus died. He died on the cross. Why."

Well, there were some people who were mad at Jesus because He was God's son and they didn't agree with what He was saying. They did not make the wise choice. It is not OK to hurt our friends.

"Mama, you know what, we should go and get Jesus off of that cross and bring Him home so that I can show Him my binoculars. I think He would really like my binoculars."

Gray, Jesus can see your binoculars from heaven. He is here and near. In fact, He wants to live in your heart forever and help guide you through your life, you just have to invite Him in.

(Gray lifts up his shirt) I don't see Him, where is He mama? And where is heaven?

It has been a wonderful week. As you can see, we have been blessed with quite an inquisitive little guy.

I Saw What I Saw, by Sara Groves

I have been so blessed by this song and this video and even though I have seen it on other blogs, I just felt moved to share it with my audience, believing that you may not have already been touched by Sara's touching lyrics and moved by the images of Rwanda through her eyes. Thanks Sara for being inspired by our Maker.

Being paper pregnant without the morning sickness

We have started requesting pieces to our Dossier this week. This is also referred to as the paper pregnancy and at the rate we are moving, it could take just as long...not really. We have requested our birth certificates and marriage certificate from all over the United States. I have talked with our insurance provider and our employers and put in a bid for letters to be created that claim we are legitimate insurees and employees. We plan to work on our financial statement this weekend and a few other bits and bobs. The online adoption training is going well. It has been such a resource for shedding light onto what to expect...possibly, depending on your child, their orphanage, their caregivers, etc.

On a different note, I had one of those God moments earlier today. I haven't told Randy about it yet, actually, come to think of it, I haven't shared it with anyone but the cat and that is only because she felt it appropriate to lay at my feet during it. I was coming up to our bedroom to get ready for a run when I felt washed over with this urgency to pray. I instantly fell to my knees at the foot of my bed and just began spilling my heart to the Lord. I was on the verge of tears, praying for Rwanda, the child, Randy, Grayson, and then it flew into prayers of thanksgiving, and then there was peace. It's not like there wasn't peace before the prayer, but this peace was unmistakably brought onto my heart by the Lord. "Be anxious for nothing, but in prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to the Lord, and His peace which transcends all understanding, shall guard your heart in Christ Jesus." (Phil 4:1, paraphrased) I have been praying over this scripture for a month and then it played out at the foot of my bed.

One more log on the fire for this evening...we have been abundantly blessed with the response from our Maine neighbors. Each day this week, we have come in contact with several bags of bottles and cans from people that we know well to people we are meeting for the first time. Thank you so much to each of you who has shared with us. The "Recycling for Rwanda" fund is growing! Amen